12 01 2014

HELLO , the first post on 2014 !
woohoo, time rush fast , so fast already 2014 ! too sad

最近都在做工，不然就是出去。
顿时觉得生活很没有意义，应该是说，我都在浪费时间。
不应该这样，心理每次想着。

我又能怎样呢？明天开始做长工，不再是Promoter ,Sampling那些Part time Job !
我的心，还没收。

每次都想着 人生的意义。
我觉得 读书的事情 应该要放一边了。轮不到我去想
因为还有更重要的事。

或许，没有读吧。直接做工
做好最坏的打算。
上天做出这样的考验，能怎样呢？
怨不得天。

唯有自己加倍努力。
我只能说，朋友们 别约我了。

我落魄了。

23122013

今天从留台联总回来，由于成绩考得不怎么理想，所以只好靠学校选我。
其实 人生是为了什么而读书？慢慢的我的目标变得很模糊，根本就不知道。
读书，不是说要读就能读，大学，不是说你要上就上。所以，我的人生目标很迷茫
读大学出来，为了就是那张文凭，花了几十千，几年的时间，为了也就是那张
可是，那张真的有用吗？还是就只是人生的一个过程，一个阶段。
很多人，读完书出来做工，做得工作都和他读了4年的大学无关。意义何在呢？重点又是什么？

以前，我都觉得我要读的是大众传播的公关与广告。
可是现在我的心态不知怎的在一秒时间转变了，我到底要的是什么？可能连我自己也不知道。
我是为了读而读，还是我真的需要呢？没有人知道。
台湾，并不是我想去的地方，但是，我被我的成绩给捆住了。、
只能台湾吗？我不想做个会让自己的决定。
身边的朋友都有个明确的目标，可我迷茫了。

以前，我很爱设计，但想了想，设计这条路，不好走，要你就要很厉害，让别人看到你的出色。
我的设计普普，外面比我还厉害的人多的是，就是因为这个原因，我放弃了设计选上了大众。
可是现在，我的想法完完全全变了，可能就是因为成绩的关系，我被捆住了。
无法逃出自己的恐惧，应该是说我把我自己给捆住了。

而且大学不是说我要读就可以，或许以前可以，由于现在经济不景气。
家里的财政状况出现了一些危机。简单来说就是没有钱。
想在多也没用。想多了 人就累了 累了就懒惰。
最后 你说会变成什么?就是 懒惰了就 不读了。

由于 现实社会的残酷。能选择吗？文凭代表一切。
毕业后出来做工为了钱。
没有钱读书出来做工也是为了钱
我只能说都是钱在搞鬼。

因为钱，未来的路不好走。唯有 努力

031213 Unlucky and Tired day for me !

Oh Damn! today very tired .
I wake up on 2pm like that , thn bath prepared hang out with friends .
When I finished fetch NickFong , JY and KH thn we prepared going Sunway Pyramid for Shopping (because JY going buy Dinner Shirt)

Because I earlier already confirm with Shinee I will go CheongK around 6 or 7 like that , so we 6:30pm prepared go back Klang ! OH DAMN ,annoying thing happened ! TRAFFIC JAM, IS VERY JAM . the car totally cannot move , so we use around 1 and half hour reach KLANG. So 8:30 I reach Centrol Neway for CheongK and than I leave 9:30 ! So ONLY 1 HOUR I sing . The time really very RUSH ! SHIT

After I leave Neway and I going SCM to fetch RX , and going meet Alan for YamCha ! because Alan promised us tonight want belanja us. So we yamcha at Starbucks ! when we reached Starbucks I already realized my car no petrol ! So when I leaving Starbucks I prepared go the nearby petrol station ! So , very unlucky thing HAPPENED !
When I reached ! The P.station Closed all the light and The Malay Girl said TUTUP , never mind I can go another place , But After I shut my car the car totally cannot start ! I very lucky my friend got follow behind my car ! so we take 2 bottle to another petrol station and buy Petrol ! damn unlucky !

I very appreciation my Buddy ! NickFong , Yeyan and Alan ! especially ALAN LEE !

THANK YOU VERY MUCH !　

and sure got another things let me feel today very unlucky !
OH , but I also safe and reach my home !
THANKYOU

A POST ONLY FOR ME

Long time didn't update my blog , actually got something remind me TIME TO UPDATE !
I think this post no one will follow and read it ! but I just update FOR MY SELF !

actually I just back from Taiwan before 10 days . what a nice trip for me .
I love travel so much , especially 4 seasons country . Damn , love it so much <3
feeling happy can go Taiwan travel ,miss the memories at TW . especially the FOOD . HAHAHA

And I just graduated from secondary . feeling confused and loss now . don't know want continued my studies or working ?!
I can guarantee my result not very good ! because I test myself so I knew !
feeling nervous to face my result ! SUCK FOR IT .
Still got 18 days my result will out . and the reality will force me to face the result .
Oh damn , now thinking also feeling bad mood and NO EYE SEE . so I hope the time can flies slow or something Miracle can let my result become good . I no need very good result i just need at least 3 B6 for me ! I really HOPE IT ! PLEASE.

Now got something annoyance for me , not my future not my result . Is a very reality thing ! THAT'S MONEY $$
I need and lack money NOW ! something need to pay something need to buy and something need to do.
money is important for me , I think is important for everyone , No MONEY NO LIFE .

I sent a lot my resume out ! but no one reply , SHIT IT . I need a part time job.

nothing to wrote dy . kthxbye!

01052013

The first day of May . I am going out with my friend , actually we are going out for watching IronMan3 only .
yes , only movie . thn we back . HAHAHA

time passed fast , I realize my post always saying the time was passing fast , actually now already May , getting Exam soon.
I cant face with my study life , really stress . but no way to choose . had been do that .
4 months more my Final exam also my Graduation exam are coming . I feeling very nervous ! no choice choose right ? must be face it .

get a good result , going a good college or U . now one more problem for me ! Money . no money actually what thing also cant do it. nobody can help also ,
the business of my father also getting down now. no incomes . what also feeling bad . let me want to find a job and do . so sad, I everytimes tell my friends I no money , actually nobody believe me too . yahh , I admission I spent money very heavy . but really no money larh .

and I want go GD world tour too , but also money problem . I am saving money now , but i still thinking should I spent this money and go to GD's concert ? should I ? I know very worth . but if save the money down I can do a lot of things actually ! OHHH , my main very messy now . :(

Study , only a feeling for me now , let me feel tired . we study for what ? for A piece of paper - Diploma . That piece of paper can let the people who are look down on you re changed you ! so , what law is that . UN FAIR !
but in this 21st century we must comfort it . HOW COME THE HUMAN'S LIFE WILL BECOME LIKE THIS ?! WHAT A SHIT.

and May5 are coming too . If you are Malaysian so try to do a good thing for this country . We love Malaysia , so we must PROTECT IT (:

#neverbetheloser #borntoshowoff

Study Camp

23 March until 25 March is my school Study camp for Senior three students . This 3 days I learnt so much , and full of memories . 3 days are passed very fast , each day gt 3 subj learnt , each subj 2 hours . This 3 days , I start to fall in love with my class . S3C3 ! All my classmate they are cute and funny (: I very I am a part of S3C3 too . Thank you all . love u all so much . :) because of u all let my day be funny and happy . Last year we can stay tgt , I sure will treasure it . (: Time really passed fast , this year is my last year in PinHwa , I been study in PinHwa already 5 years plus . I love PinHwa . I very the Life after I graduate , but I not willing the school in PinHwa . Already March , actually left 7 months we can live tgt . I full of happy memories because of u all . My high school life because gt u all and become Colourful and Powerful . Thank You again S3C3 ! :D When we graduate must keep in touch yahh . (':

Alone .

Long long time din blogging , very busy and lazy . 2013 , is my final year of study . means this year i am taking my UEC exam . I just finished my first term exam , I really tried my best to do hard . but not work . I fail almost all my subject . feeling sad . I am thinking , why i cant pass it ? I already do my best and work hard . after exam I get sick , a heavy dick . because during the exam i everyday stay up all night . drink a lot of coffee . when start school , the teachers are giving back our exam paper . my heart is breaking ! nt a gd result i want . HOWCOME ?! I almost think thins question very time . I hate that feeling . hate it . I cant bear it . I am having sick too , so let me very uncomfortable . totaly I cried . cried out all my bad feeling , I hate that feeling too . how I accept it ! u guys dunno , that feeling almost killing me ! my friends also dunno . they always think I nt care about my result. Actually not that . and I feeling upset . I only can said with my self next time do hard . but when the next time is coming and i become lazy . so how my dream can come true ? SUCK mood everyday , and Senior 3 course are very hard . I cant follow . I also dunno What am i thinking . everyday like not doing my self. 我找不出自我，我失去了方向。但是，没人理我。 连我觉得最珍惜的友谊，都渐渐便陌生。我很恐惧，我很害怕。 但，我也只能默默接受不是吗？没有人会同情你。没有人会理你。 心如刀割。我恨我自己。因为我自己也不懂 自己还是不是原本的自己。 我恨我伤我接受 ! 我就是不善于表达自己的情感，才害到自己偏体鳞伤。